Good morning! My day has been great so far because – guess what? I actually woke up on time today, which means I was up before 6 AM. This is a big deal for me, people! As you may know, my goal for February is to establish a solid morning and night routine, and that includes getting up ON TIME. I have been seriously letting myself hit snooze, and sleep in for another hour or however long. And it just makes my morning miserable. But today has been glorious.
Breakfast had to be quick and easy because, seriously, cooking/assembling anything before 6 AM is just not going to happen (yet). Trader Joe’s Honey O’s, a banana, and almond milk for me! This hit the spot so well.
After breakfast, I did my devotional and had some lovely quiet prayer time before the sun even came up. Then I was about to head down to the gym to whip out another cardio day. Since I got my Kindle, I’ve been taking it to the gym with me to brainstorm blog posts or view cardio workouts while I’m on the treadmill/elliptical. I haven’t gotten a case for my Kindle yet, and when I was carrying it the other day over snow and ice, I was so worried I’d drop it. Solution: mini gym bag to carry all my junk.
Cute, right? The bag was a leftover reusable bag from Christmas. Inside is the Kindle, my water bottle, iPod, keys, and gym card. Complete with hand sanitizer as well, as I always feel nasty after touching the machines. At the gym, I did another 30 minute incline walk and 15 minutes on the elliptical. My legs burn, and I have a ton of energy now! Love it 🙂
Where is the time?
In leu of waking up early this morning, I want to address some thoughts that have been floating around in my head the past few days about how I spend my time (oh, how I love talking about time). The past week or so I’ve really felt a lack of presence on the blog. Yes, I have been updating and (hopefully) producing quality content, but I have just felt like I haven’t really been around, at least not to the extent that I want to. Blogging does take a lot of time and effort, and I’ve just had a pretty packed schedule for the past few days, making it harder for me to get around to what I need to. To be truly effective at blogging, I like to divide my time equally between writing my own posts, reading & commenting on other blogs, and having an active presence on my social media. But when my schedule gets busy, it seems all I end up making time for is writing my own posts, which is not enough to truly feel “around” or connect with others.
Anyway, I said all of this just to say that I had thoughts going through my head like, “When I start my February goals, then I’ll have a good schedule.” or “If I get a job this year, that will help me get up early and start being more organized with my schedule.” But that is all just such silly thinking. Truth is, there is never going to be an “ideal” time to organize my life or start waking up when I want to. It’s so easy for me to think that things will somehow “be different” (whatever that means) at another time, and then I can do what I really want. The reality is that the time to do what I want is RIGHT NOW. Not next week or next month. Not when I have more or less on my plate. Not when I’m older. But now. Now is all I have.
This reminds me of two things: the quote “Life is not a dress rehearsal. This is it,” and the song “Stop this Train” by John Mayer. Both of these remind me that, regardless of how I wish life could stop so I could get everything done and then resume when I am ready for it (which would inevitably be never), I have to face the music of living intentionally every day. Not at a later date, but now.
Just for fun, here is the song.
This song really resonates with how I feel a lot of the time. Can’t I just stop time and make it not go so fast? “So scared of getting older, I’m only good at being young…” It’s such a bittersweet thing, time. It’s not the first time I’ve realized that I’ll “never stop this train.” This is something that I guess I renegotiate with myself every once in a while – my ambitions, my schedule, how I view time. I suppose at different stages in life, renegotiation is necessary. As I said last week with my schedule, I’m starting to take my time and how I use it more seriously. My hope is that every day I can make the effort live just a little bit more intentionally than the last. No, I will not have time for everything at some point in my life ever. Yet the best I can do is aim high and keep hope to lead the kind of life I desire to live.
- Question for you: Do you go through periods of thinking that things will be easier later, but realize later never really comes? What’s your attitude about using the time you have right now?