I could not be happier that today is Friday. It seems like this has been such a hard and long week for me. I’ve felt pretty tired and a little stressed about small things lately. I also worked a lot, but just found out I don’t have to work this afternoon – hooray!
This morning I somehow convinced myself to run my favorite 3 mile loop outside. It’s actually sunny and looks beautiful out, but it’s about 19 degrees. With the wind chill – and it was windy – I think it was probably 5 degrees. So chilly! I’m always glad after a run, but today I was kind of in pain. My face/ears were totally numb. I couldn’t feel my feet. And my head felt really blocked up and strange. I felt a lot better after a warm shower though. That was probably the most rewarding shower of my life! I already asked this on Twitter, but I’ll ask it again here: Runners – how cold is too cold to run outside? I think today was borderline too cold for me… I know some of you will say it’s never too cold, but I’m sorry – that’s insane! Where do you draw the line with weather conditions for your runs? I’m just curious because I honestly felt like really weird after my run today, and I’m just curious if running in too cold of weather has bad effects? Or maybe I have no idea what I’m talking about. 😉
If you’ve been reading for a while, you might be familiar with my Year of Resolutions. For February, my focus is going to be waking up/going to bed on time and committing to a morning and night-time routine. Well – since getting back from Christmas vacation, I kind of feel like my morning/night schedule has been nonexistent, and my schedule in general is a little all over the place. And it’s driving me crazy.
The past few days, I’ve really given my goals for February a lot of thought because honestly, these goals are SO drastically different from what my life looks like right now. I keep thinking How am I actually going to wake up on time? I’m soooo tired in the morning. And it started to worry me a little because the last thing I want is to set a goal that’s going to go up in flames in the end. But I did a little bit of planning yesterday and realized that I need to commit to some kind of schedule now.
No, I am not going to jump the gun and start my February goals early. That would totally defeat to point of having a resolution per month. I tend to have issues with wanting to get ALL my goals started/finished all at once, which really means I don’t have time to truly focus on any one goal. I don’t want this, especially this early in the game. I just need to get my act together and stop wasting time.
One of my biggest problems is wasting time. There’s so many tasks & opportunities that get my normal schedule off track, and then at the end of the day, I wonder why I didn’t accomplish more.
Some of my habits are…
- getting on technology (computer, phone, Kindle) first thing in the morning. I am automatically more tied to my technology if I start my day with it.
- Not having a plan for the day. I either think I have more time than I do, and I end up wasting time I should’ve used well, or I get anxious about how to use my time because I didn’t plan what I’m doing, so I essentially don’t know what to do.
- avoiding tasks altogether. There are days when I clearly have time to do a workout or read my book, I just chose to avoid it until it was “too late” to do it anymore.
And I could go on, I’m sure. But you get the point. I am such a need-a-plan kind of person. I thrive off of knowing what I’m doing in advance so that my mind is already there. If I wake up and think “Hmm, what do I do next?” I’m a lot more tempted to waste time because I’m not aware of what I should be doing. When I wake up and know I am going to spend time in prayer, read my Bible, and then do a workout – my anxiety diminishes because I know I’ve already planned my time in advance. I don’t have to worry about what will come next because I already know. Overall, schedules just work for me and I need one.
So with all that said, I’m not going to dive right into the morning/night routine that I desire for February. Instead, I’m going to take baby steps to get to be where I want to by the end of February. The biggest challenge right now is committing to using my time effectively. I need to write out a rough schedule for the day the night before. I was doing this for a while and it helps so much. It all comes down to discipline for me, though. Sometimes, I can make a schedule, but if my heart is not interested in being disciplined with it – the schedule can easily be just another piece of paper with zero impact on my day. Today, I’m choosing to let that schedule have impact. I’m choosing to let the intentionality of a schedule rule my day over my lazy desire to let it slide.
Sometimes I just have to give myself a good hard talk like this and realize that if I want things to turn out well, if I want to be free of anxiety, if I want to succeed – I have to also want the discipline to get me there.
- Question for you: Are you a schedule person, and if so, do you follow one on a typical day? What tips do you have for sticking to a schedule?