Well guys, I’m still very pregnant over here.
I’m 39 weeks now. I know I still have another seven days until my due date. I’m not even “over due” yet. And I also know that “most first time moms are late.” But I’m really impatient because…
I’ve been experiencing what is known as prodromal labor, aka weeks of “false labor” that feels and seems just like the real thing. Since I had my pre-term labor experience at 34 weeks, I have had Braxton Hicks every single day. Sometimes they go on for hours and hours. My belly will get extremely hard and then soft, over and over again, slowly driving me insane. In the past two weeks, those BH’s have changed from painless to uncomfortable to extremely painful.
Tuesday night, I tried to go to bed at about 10 but was up from then until about 1:30 in the morning having extremely painful contractions. It felt like the worst period cramps of my life times about ten. It went on for hours… I was totally 100% convinced that this was it, I was going into labor. So since I thought that, I actually tried to get some rest and just let my husband sleep.
I continued to have contractions all throughout the night but the pain did subside enough to where I could sleep some. I was pretty close to calling my doctor to see if I should go in, but I figured if I truly was in labor, I wanted to labor at home for as long as possible and not rush in too soon. By mid-morning, all activity had stopped completely. But I was contracting for hours. So the whole day I thought maybe they’d pick back up and I could be having a baby that day. Clearly, I did not.
I am literally at my wit’s end, guys. Yes, I know I am a first time mom. Yes, I know first babies are “typically late.” But I did not know that you can have very real labor symptoms for WEEKS before you give birth. Literally, no one told me this and I’ve never heard of anyone who has experienced this before. But thanks to Google, I’ve found that this is actually a thing and plenty of moms experience it.
I’m extremely annoyed right now because I feel like no one understands. I feel like people are thinking, “Yup… you were told pregnancy could last 40+ weeks. Why are you complaining?” But just because pregnancy normally lasts 40+ weeks doesn’t mean I am not 100% completely sick of it. For some reason I feel extremely judged right now, and I’m not really sure why… I almost feel like I need to have this baby to “perform” for everyone who has been expecting her to come early for weeks. And the fact that I’ve been told by my doctors “any day now” for oh… going on five weeks – no, I did not expect to still be pregnant at this point, regardless of the “facts.”
It feels like I’m going to be pregnant forever, despite how I know that is not true. Having HOURS of contractions that are timeable, consistent, and not letting up (just like the labor books say real labor is) only to have it all go away in a few hours is extremely mentally (and not to mention physically!) exhausting. There have been way too many times that I’ve thought “this could be something!” and it’s not. Disappointed is an understatement at this point.
I am glad that I am not having a pre-term baby. And I should just be thankful that baby and I are doing okay still. But this is really hard. It’s like my body and the baby are constantly playing a joke on me that I’m not clued in on until after the fact. It’s just so mentally defeating.
I just had to get that out there because I really have nothing else to blog about right now. I sit around on my couch all day doing nothing that productive. Anything that requires my mind is pretty much out the window right now. I am not reading, doing crafts, or anything. I keep my house as clean as possible just in case I do go into labor. I eat and snack a lot. And I sit on the internet and waste time. That’s about it.
I’m sure now that I’ve written the most negative post about my pregnancy ever, baby will come like tomorrow, right? Sorry I couldn’t be more positive today, but this mama is more than ready!
Questions for You:
- Have you ever heard of prodromal labor?
- How do you view people’s “end of pregnancy frustration?”