Can I just say that life feels like a whirlwind right now? It’s actually been pretty hard to be open on the blog lately because sometimes I just don’t know what to say. With all the adjusting and trying to maintain balance in all areas, I’m left exhausted, confused, and sometimes my mind is just gone by the end of the day. I never want to sound like I’m complaining though, so sometimes I feel like I can’t say anything at all.
This weekend was pretty hard and anything but relaxing. Saturday was nice going out, but coming home to Beans was stressful and worrisome. I didn’t say much about it, but he was incredibly sick. And I’ve never had a dog before him, so knowing what to do (or rather, having no idea what to do) was not fun. Note: he is totally fine now, thank goodness.
Then all day Sunday, I wanted to be with Beans and take care of him but had to go to a class I’m taking at my church. I mentioned it briefly a while back, but I haven’t even had the chance to talk about the details. The class is from 3-8pm, and usually goes a little bit longer than that. It’s also not an easy class to take, as it’s related to overcoming your sin with the Lord. It is awesome, but it’s also been incredibly hard right now since it’s a big chunk of my weekend that gets eaten up by church. Furthermore, I go to the 9 am service at my church & then serve at the 11 am.
So a typical Sunday has included being at church from 8:30-1, and then 3-8. And it’s just been really hard to have that be my day before I start a a full work week that I don’t feel prepared for.
I will say that last week was the first week I felt like I finally got my act together with working out. It felt amazing to work out 6 days a week and just be active almost every day.
Monday: leg strength & 2 mile run (1 of which was done outside, and the other inside when I realized it was too dark to continue)
Tuesday: 30 Min. Elliptical Workout (Heather @ Fit n Cookies)
Wednesday: Short on Time Circuit Workout
Friday: 3 rounds of this yoga sequence
Saturday: 2.5 mile run outside
Nothing extreme, but man, did all of that feel good.
Of course, yesterday turned out to be the total opposite and I didn’t get a workout in. I was up really late the night before, so I couldn’t get up early enough. I actually had enough time to squeeze a workout in but chose to read the Bible & pray instead (better choice, right?). I intended to workout after work but came home with a terrible head and neck ache. So it was just a rest day, and I can honestly say I think I needed it.
I wish I could say that I’ve let it go, but I really can’t stand starting Monday’s off on the wrong foot. I find that when I have a good routine Monday, everything else follows suite. But when Monday is bad, it seems like the rest of the week follows that pattern too.
Unfortunately, looking into the future doesn’t look any better either. The rest of this month is going to be really busy, but so is the next week. In the following week I have…
- to work late Friday
- to babysit for a friend Saturday
- my last class at church Sunday
- a writing assignment for my church class, as well as reading
- a meeting for church next Monday night
- a book club next Thursday for a book I haven’t even started
And then Thanksgiving is the week after that?!
The fact that time for myself and all the things I merely want to do (blog, read, relax) is very limited has been so hard. I feel like not only has my job been put on my plate, but many other extras have too. I’m trying not to focus on my circumstances and get too down about life because of that, but just take things one day at a time. When I look at that list above, I feel like I could have a heart attack. But when I look at what I have to do tomorrow, I’m encouraged that I can make it through those next 24 hours.
Somewhere recently I read (and unfortunately can’t remember where) that God gives us just enough strength for today. He doesn’t give us more so we can stockpile it, because then we wouldn’t need to rely on Him. I’m finding that in this adjustment period and huge life change for me, God is constantly calling me to be dependent on Him not just when I want to but in every moment of my day.
Questions for You:
- If you could only have one thing perfectly balanced in your life, what would it be?
- Are you getting excited about Thanksgiving?