Contrary to my post earlier this week about not caring what others think, sometimes it’s hard to be open about my faith online. Lately, I’ve noticed my enthusiasm for these posts has dried up a little bit. Last Friday, I ditched FIMF (again).
I try to give myself some slack and not put any pressure on blog-related things or else I start hating blogging. But dropping the ball on this post series that I started back in February is just not cool to me.
Some of the reason I am only half here with this post is because I just don’t prioritize it all that much. But the other part of it is that sometimes I’m afraid to publish these posts. Admittedly, these posts get the least amount of comments and views out of any of my posts. Lately, I’ve heard the secret whispers of the enemy trying to tell me no one cares. Or even worse, that it offends people, so I better not post it.
While faith and the gospel is undoubtedly offensive to some people, I will not accept fear as my guide. I fully believe that the Lord wants me to use my blog as a voice for His glory. No lack of interest, insecurity on my own part, or lie I may believe is going to snuff that out.
Knowing What to Say
Sometimes it’s just hard to know what to say about faith. In my head, I have a million ideas and thoughts about it. But when coming to write or really think about this topic, sometimes I just stall up. It’s one of the hardest topics for me to form into words and ever be happy with – probably because I want it to be perfect.
It’s hard to hit publish and not worry that someone will disagree or say I’m wrong. Or worry that people will not say anything at all and silently think I’m a weirdo for turning her blog into a Bible-thumpin’ bash every Friday. But I’m just going to have to let that go, aren’t I?
I wouldn’t say I sit here and worry about this post every week like crazy, but it doesn’t come as easily as writing about my breakfast or what I did that day. But this topic – my faith in God – is so much more important than breakfast. And I truly think people need to hear that message, whatever it may be.
Another reason it’s hard is because I’m talking about God. The creator of the universe. Jesus Christ, the perfect man. And – well – knowing what to say about that important of a being is a little intimidating. God is perfect and I would hope to represent Him in the perfect way, to draw all people who read my blog to Him. I hear it a lot in my church’s circles, that most Christians fear knowing what to say to others about God, wanting to get it just right.
I’m starting to realize how ridiculous that sounds. I can’t please everyone. It’s not my responsibility if someone is offended by something I have good intentions with. Of course not everyone is going to become a Christian just by reading my blog. But that does not mean that this doesn’t have a purpose in God’s plan. What it does mean is that I can speak up about what I really believe in, about what He is doing in my life.
Sharing my faith has already not looked perfect, and it probably never will. But I do know that I’ve just got keep sharing, however imperfect it may be. I know I just have to embrace that God hasn’t called me to do His work perfectly, but trust that He will guide me perfectly to do His work.
I hope you guys have a great Friday & a wonderful weekend. I’d love to hear your thoughts on how this relates to you or what you think about sharing faith online/on your blog.
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