I hope you had a good week and are doing the happy dance ’cause it’s Friday 🙂
Prayer Life Lately
If I take an honest look at my prayer life for the month, it hasn’t really been “amazing” or like I’m praying extra like I think I envisioned at the start of this month.
And I didn’t follow my well-intended prayer schedule at all.
I actually really hate admitting that I didn’t stick to something (big surprise, there). But I will admit that my prayer schedule didn’t even begin. I’d done it in the past, and it was okay. I really did want to try again. And if I had really put that before anything else, I’m sure I could have made it happen.
But – this month was way busier than I anticipated. My vacation at the start of the month is what I blame for this not happening at all. I didn’t start right at the beginning, so it was harder to start later. Then I unexpectedly signed up with Mary Kay, and got very bust with that. And now my husband is gone. So life is just all out of whack for me.
Is all of that an excuse for not reaching my goal, for not praying like I wanted to? No. A valid reason why it all didn’t happen perfectly? Yes.
So, I’m saying oh well. Admitting that my plans went completely awry. But my prayer life did not.
Thankful, Prayerful, Hopeful
With all that said, this was not a dry month for my prayer life at all. I didn’t follow my plan or get after my goal in the way I thought I would. But – this month has actually been great for prayer.
I want to talk about some answered prayers & how that’s helped my prayer life. God has done some amazing things for me this month, specifically.
First, I had a much-needed, get-away-from-it-all vacation with my husband at the beginning of the month. Our trip was a huge blessing. My husband’s been working more lately, and our vacation gave us a way to be inseparable and enjoy time together. Huge blessing, there. And, despite a ton of rain during our trip and needing to come home early, we both maintained a positive attitude and were grateful nonetheless.
Second, God provided a job and answered a huge prayer of mine for the year. Never in a million YEARS did I see Mary Kay coming into my life as a real career, but let me tell you – I already love it. I talked more about why I see it as God’s plan for me in this post, but each day as I do new things for my job, that fact is only reinforced more.
Third, God has given me out-of-this world peace while my husband has been gone. I had been very prayerful about his trip and us doing okay apart for quite a while before he left. God has beyond answered that prayer for me.
When the hubs would go on a short business trip before (2-4 days), I was usually somewhat of a mess. I could NOT sleep for the life of me, and when I did, I had to leave the light on. I would hear the slightest sound and immediately think I was being robbed. Yup. I was totally anxious and worried.
But now, he’s half way around the world, I am barely talking to him at all, I don’t really know too much of what he’s doing due to lack of communication – and I have been… happy. I have been normal, relaxed, and able to sleep. That might not make sense to some of you, but it’s been amazing to me. A total miracle.
So with that said, seeing all this answer to prayer lately has encouraged me and put me in awe of the Lord. In just this month, He has done so much that I was asking for. How grateful, thankful, and hopeful this makes me feel is indescribable.
My prayer was not scheduled or perfect. The biggest thing I learned this month is that an open heart yields and open prayer life. I was hoping to fit prayer and God into some little perfectly scheduled prayer time, because that’s what makes sense to me. But God is so much bigger than that. He doesn’t need a scheduled time in my day and prayer doesn’t always need a to follow a certain topic. When I am close with the Lord, my prayer life just flows abundantly, openly, & beautifully all by itself.
I am so glad I don’t need plans or perfection to have a relationship with my Heavenly Father. He is right there waiting every moment I need Him. He is there before I call on Him. He knows my prayers before I pray them. He takes me as I am, where ever I am, and showers me with hope and grace.
This month really showed me that less than perfect is just fine with God. I realize more and more that He’s not asking for perfection. Just a relationship. He asks for a lot of my heart, and I may not give it to Him as I see perfectly. But giving what I have to Him always results in growth & a deeper relationship with Him.
In a way, prayer is perfect all by itself, no matter what it looks like. How redeeming is that?