I expressed it a little bit in yesterday’s post, but man have I been feeling o v e r whelmed. Some weeks are just a doozy, I guess. It always seems like a not-so-great week follows a really good week, too. Last week, I was doing the sugar detox, feeling great, had a lot of great workouts, and PR’d a 5K. Nothing could’ve be better.
But then this week was just hard. I’ve felt exhausted all week, probably because I worked out seven days last week, but was still wanting to keep up the pace with my workouts this week. My body did not like that.
I also didn’t make any time to plan out my blog schedule like I normally do. Typically, I know what I’m writing each day or I already have it scheduled to publish. But that was not the case this week. So I was left feeling a little scatterbrained and lost.
Typically, the more I have to do, the more I squelch out my time with God. Read the Bible? “Why, I can do that anytime. I need to get this blog post out or a workout in!” Timely things unfortunately end up getting precedence over time with Jesus. I end up foolishly falling into the trap of thinking, “Why pray about problems when I just need to act to get stuff done?” But that thinking is sometimes the most dangerous thing I could ever think.
I get tricked into thinking all these timely things don’t deserve to be handed over to God. I get fooled into believing that just getting stuff done will make my life easier. But instead, I am rushing around to get things done (and not very effectively, at that), not spending time with the Lord, and as a result, I am not filled with peace but anxiety. My problems are still there and I’m not in tune with God. This is a lose, lose situation.
Thankfully, I was convicted and noticed this pattern quickly. I began praying for desire to spend time with the Lord. Sometimes, when there’s just so much to do, my desire to be still and sit quietly in His presence flees me. In my heart, I know I truly do desire that time that I can only have with Him. But when there’s a to do list as long as my arm, I am left wanting to get all that done over anything else.
In the midst of praying for discipline with my time and to prioritize time with God, God revealed Matthew 22: 1-5 to me.
“Jesus spoke to them again in parables, saying: ‘The kingdom of heaven is like a king who prepared a wedding banquet for his son. He sent his servants to those who had been invited to the banquet to tell them to come, but they refused to come.
Then he sent some more servants and said, ‘Tell those who have been invited that I have prepared my dinner; My oxen and fattened cattle have been butchered, and everything is ready. Come to the wedding banquet.’
But they paid no attention and went off – one to his field, another to his business.”
This passage just about jumped off the page to me, considering my attitude about spending time with God this week. The passage speaks so much truth – that God has prepared everything for us. He has perfect peace and unending love to offer us. If we just come.
The “oxen and fattened cattle” is God’s absolute best that He can offer. Peace, joy, love, acceptance, forgiveness, redemption. And yet, in my foolishness & sinful habits, I “pay no attention” and go off to my “business.”
Have I mentioned lately that I’m not perfect? 🙂
Anyway, I just really needed this passage to realize that my work and my to do list is absolutely not the most important thing, even if things seem really pressing at the time. Of course, I already knew this before encountering the passage, but I really needed this as a reminder this week.
This just goes to show how much I really need to be in the Word every single day. The Bible is full of constant reminders of how to live life the way God wants us to live.
This week wasn’t perfect. Sometimes I felt burdened and lacking joy. But passages like these and times that I spend with God like that show me that He is teaching me valuable lessons every day. Sometimes I get so frustrated that I’m struggling at all. But then I remember that the struggle is part of the journey, that maybe God is testing me to teach me and grow me in areas I need growth.
Questions for You:
- Does your to do list ever dictate your day-to-day?
- What’s your favorite way to rest after “one of those” weeks?