I’m usually all smiles on Friday, but today, I am just glad I made it through this week.
I had something else planned for this post, but it just wasn’t right for this week. I know this week has been hard on many people. It’s been hard for me to process what’s happened. It’s been hard to read the news. It’s hard not to read the news. I’ve had zero motivation to really do anything except pray and be rather still. It’s amazing how much grief can change my regular do-so-much always-stay-busy self.
As I alluded to yesterday, I’m quite okay with the shift in my thinking, feeling, and actions this week. I feel that God has called me to a place of rest and mourning. It doesn’t feel right to be happy. I can’t feel happy yet.
What God has offered me, though, is total peace. Yes, I am still saddened and grievous about the events and all the tragedies still being told. But something about this week has left me feeling like I’m floating on air, just gliding through the day on His graces.
God has offered me peace, specifically in that…
- I do not feel like I have to do everything anymore. It’s been okay to rest physically and mentally. This is a huge blessing in general.
- His Word has completely pierced my heart to the core, showing me just how exquisite and perfect The Bible is. The scripture I’ve encountered this week has been renewing, comforting, and has been yet another example of just how alive the Word of God is.
- I have been able to offer my concerns, sadness, and fears to Him fully in prayer. I do this on a regular basis, but this week I have been unnaturally dependent on Him for this. As always, He listens and provides.
- I have chosen to see this situation with light and a positive attitude. Many people who have talked to me about the events have been angry and spoken many harsh things surrounding it. Each time this has happened, I’ve instead chosen to tell them about a good act of kindness & the generosity of the people after the event instead of the horror of the event itself.
God has definitely been at work in my life alone this week. This week hasn’t been fun, but it’s revealed to me His goodness in times of need. I can only hope and pray that those who need His peace much more than I do will feel it.
Please continue to pray for Boston. I found this great article, 10 Ways to Pray for Boston, with some great scripture and ideas to pray over.
Happy Friday & have a good weekend