Dear Stella Grace,
You’re not yet here in the world but still nestled neatly inside my womb, growing and tumbling constantly. I’m writing you because I’ve had a hard time actually thinking much about you during this pregnancy. You see, there’s this other person here named Claire, your big sister, who has been keeping mama’s hands quite full. We just moved to Hawaii about seven months ago, daddy has been really busy at work, and we’re all finally getting adjusted. This pregnancy has gone by so fast that sometimes I forget that it will end with a baby here in my arms – you!
You are my second daughter, but that doesn’t mean you come at a second rate. I am learning before you are even here, though, that our relationship will be different than that of your sister and I. I’m probably going to let you get away with things that Claire does not because by the time you get there, I just may not have the energy (or patience) to deal with certain things. And because when you are here, I will have already learned so much about motherhood and it won’t be new or as scary to me anymore. Be thankful for this.
Being the older sister in my family, I was always confused by this, but now being a mom myself, I can see how it’s very easy and sometimes necessary to parent children differently. While I hope to always be as fair as I can with the two of you girls, I know there will be differences and I hope one day you understand.
Now back to you. Sweet girl. I have seen your face in a 3D ultrasound and I know you are beautiful. Doctors said they already saw a full head of hair in the ultrasound. I can’t even wait to see what your pretty locks look like.
We are going to pierce your ears a few months after you are born, just like we did with your sister. Claire, although she is still very little herself, is so ready to be your sister. She gives great kisses and is going to want to hold you and give you a pacifier and bottle and blankies and toys. I am already praying that you two will be close and great friends in childhood and beyond.
I nicknamed you little pineapple since you will be born in Hawaii (how cool!), but daddy named you. He came home with a list of names one day and suggested Stella to me and that was it. We thought we would wait until you were born to meet you and name you, but we didn’t come up with any other names, so this is it! I have always loved the name Grace too and thought they sounded good together. I hope you grow to like it!
We are still in the process of clearing out the nursery to make it yours. Because your name means “star,” we’re going to add some star elements to the nursery to make it yours.
I already have plans for your newborn photo shoot, which will be pineapple themed and on the beach here in Hawaii. Thankfully, your mama is a photographer so there will be no lack of photos of you just because you are the second child. Whether or not your baby books gets made is still in question as I haven’t even finished your sister’s yet!
Although it’s still a few weeks away that I will meet you (unless you come early!), I am already counting down the days until I can kiss your sweet lips, hold your tiny fingers, and cry tears of joy for a beautiful perfect baby, a gift from heaven. I know you won’t be a little baby long and it already breaks my heart that the days will go so fast – even faster with your crazy sister around! I am so thankful that God gave us you and know that you were meant to be here and be part of His kingdom.
I love you to the moon and stars and back, Stella Grace.