Happy Friday, folks!
Time for another quick catch up over coffee 🙂
If we were having coffee today, I’d tell you that…
…I am still drinking decaf and have definitely noticed any fully caffeinated stuff starts giving me throat tightness and anxiety again within a day. BOO. I haven’t gotten to buy any good Hawaiian coffee beans and that makes me sad! Oh well.
…we are moving into a house a week from today!!!!!!!! I kept quiet on this just in case it fell through since I wasn’t sure what to expect with buying our first home. I am BEYOND excited about the house and so ready to move on from hotel life. I will be sharing more details as soon as I can!
…Claire is walking! I’m so proud of her! She made progress in standing and taking one step here or there, but she’s full on walking now and it just happened like that.
Here’s a video of her from the other day.
She still falls a lot but is starting to like walking more than crawling. I’m also kind of sad I’m not doing baby updates for her anymore because she has changed so much since her last update! I may do an 18 and 24 month update just to get my fix in.
…I’m going to take a blogging and social media break in July. I hate the thought of stepping away from my blog right now after I just rebranded and relaunched it, but I’ve got to be honest: online stuff has completely taken over my life lately.
I blame it on the fact that I’ve felt extremely purposeless in this transition to Hawaii without having a routine or face-to-face friends. I have turned to social media as my “friends” and blogging as my “thing” to do. That’s fine when there are other things to balance it out, but there haven’t been so I am way too glued to stuff lately. It’s just become a way bigger habit than it needs to be.
And since we’re about to move, I really want to get my house organized (and baby proofed OMG) as soon as possible as well as start living in my new house without the bad habit of being on social media 24/7. As I said before, I’m really craving balance. I don’t want to feel obligated to be online when I am going to suddenly be so much busier with actual things to do, so I think it’ll be a good time for a break. I hope you understand! I may schedule some posts in advance for July just so my blog doesn’t completely go dark, but I wouldn’t respond to comments or be checking on it until my “fast” is over.
…I feel like a terrible mom lately. I thought of writing a whole post about this, but just haven’t had the time to write it. Obviously being glued to social media is not helping me, but I just don’t feel present as a mom. Living in the hotel has been hard because nothing is baby proofed (aka, Claire can get to the trash, open the doors). There also isn’t enough space to move everything out of her reach so she’s constantly shredding a roll of toilet paper or opening my bedroom door and knocking down my Kindle or what have you.
It’s been hard to want to be present for a time that feels so full of failure for me because I just can’t make this hotel any more baby friendly. We both often get stir crazy and need to go out but she also gets very fussy when we’re out too. We actually lost all three of her Wubbanubs last week (she threw them from her stroller) so one time she was fussing and we were walking back to the hotel and she was just screaming. I was that lady with a screaming baby in her stroller who looked like I didn’t even hear it. But there was nothing I could do. She wanted the binky and we didn’t have one! She’s also in a huge stage of wanting to be held, which is hard now that’s she probably 22 pounds or so. My arms are dying! I do love holding her but need some more muscles to make it happen!
Overall I just feel like like what I think my purpose is is in the wrong place. I want to be fulfilled by motherhood but instead I feel like I’m actively trying to avoid it because it hasn’t been convenient (but when is it ever going to be?!). I also feel terrible for even admitting this, but I’d rather keep it real and hopefully have someone relate than pretend motherhood is all roses right now.
…I’m having a serious case of grass-is-greener syndrome. I feel like the entire time I’ve lived in Waikiki, I’ve said that “it’ll be better when we live in our own house.” And while that is mostly true, our new house is going to be work again. I’ll have to cook, clean, do the dishes, and keep a place tidy – all things I’m not really having to do here.
I also have to unpack, decorate, wash all our stuff, start cloth diapering again, etc. So in a way, living in our own home will be so much more comfortable for me mentally, but I think it’ll be harder in a lot of ways too. I’m not trying to complain about our new home, but I think I’ve just categorized living in a hotel as so “hard” and that a house is better, but they both have their trade offs for sure.
We have our final walk through for the house tomorrow. I can’t wait to get into it and hopefully have some more space in a lot more ways than just square footage.
For fun here’s some posts I really liked from the week.
- Blogging is Hard Work But I Still Love It by Heather – So true!
- Frustrations and Purpose by Catherine – Basically how I feel about life exactly right now
- How are Things Going? by Courtney – Real life on being a mom of two. I love her honesty
- Strawberry Chicken Spinach Power Salad by Lindsay – Want to make ASAP!
- Chocolate Strawberry Protein Popsicles by Julie – Looks yummy and a nice giveaway for VEGA protein
Have a great weekend!
Questions for You:
- What are your plans for the weekend?
- Do you believe in social media breaks? Are you good about balancing real life and social media?