I took quite the seiesta from blogging/being online last week. I am still on bed rest, but wanted to make sure I didn’t become glued to my computer/social media while I’m home. Something just felt right about taking some time off and really doing not much of anything, but I’ll fill you in on what I have been up to.
First and foremost, we are in all things baby mode over here. I’ve hesitated sharing too much of my thoughts lately because they are ALL related to the impending birth of my first child. I feel like all I want to blog about is my thoughts about the baby, pregnancy, birth, all the things I’m doing to prep for her arrival, and so on. I never wanted my pregnancy or the fact that I’m expecting a baby to take over the blog since I know that’s not everyone’s thing, but I am probably not going to blog then if I don’t share what’s going on! But I love blogging to much to just sit around and not write anything…
So, you’ve been warned. It may be all things baby from here on out, folks. I hope you can deal with it! On that note, I’ll give you the scoop on what this momma-to-be has been up to.
Preparing for Baby
Over the weekend, we got some more stuff off our registry in the mail. I honestly think one of the most exciting things about pregnancy has been how many things we keep getting in the mail. I will certainly be sad once all the packages stop arriving. I just love getting packages.
Anyway, we got one of our strollers & I put it together myself. Trust me, this is a giant feat for an 8 month pregnant woman.
Graco Pace Click Connect Stroller in “Byler”
I haven’t used this in action yet (obviously), but I looooooove this stroller. It’s super light weight, easy to fold up, isn’t huge, and glides really smoothly. Why I’m so exciting about the stroller is beyond me. Maybe it’s just because it’s a good distraction from the fact that I can only wear two pairs of pants right now. Maybe.
We also ordered a BOB jogging stroller, courtesey of my in-laws (thank you!). It was on sale and we were able to get it about $100 cheaper than list price.
Hubby put together the crib as well, which was actually kind of anticlimatic for me. I was dying for him to set it up for weeks, but once he finally did, I realized it was way bigger than I envisioned it being.
The mattress is still in the mail!
I already talked about how we can’t have my dream nursery right now, but seeing the huge crib take up almost all of the very small room and seeing three pieces of furniture that don’t match – I almost went into labor right there. Not really. But it just solidified that this is not ideal, not what I want, and stuff that doesn’t match or look good together drives me insane. Yes, I am being totally stupid, irrational, and hormonal about it. Welcome to my life. Hopefully I can brush past it for the next couple of months and we can upgrade after we move, like we’ve planned.
Despite being pretty lazy all week, I did manage to make three freezer meals to save for later. I made these lasagna roll ups, really simple chicken enchiladas (didn’t use a recipe), & a varation of my favorite quiche.
The fact that I was able to get even a few meals together before she gets here really makes me feel good. Freezer meals is something that sounds so good in theory but didn’t seem like something I’d ever make time for. I’m so glad I did, though! I’m hoping I can scrounge together a couple more meals this week and every week until she comes so we’re one step ahead.
I’m not going to lie, I struggled big time with impatience this past week. I know every very pregnant woman struggles with this, but my feelings about this are kind of complicated.
When I was put on bed rest, my doctor convinced me from my pre-term labor experience that I could “go any day now.” I didn’t and still haven’t said much publicly about bed rest on my own social media (other than here) because I don’t want the attention. But I was obviously pulled from work and had to cancel some engagements with people due to being on bed rest, so the word got around fast.
Almost every day for the past two weeks that I’ve been home, someone I know has texted or messaged me about how I’m doing. I know that these people mean well, but everyone is acting like I am either about to die or about to give birth – neither of which are true. People have flat out asked if I’ve had the baby yet and are constantly asking how I’m feeling. I honestly feel fine other than being very pregnant, but it’s like people have equated being on bed rest with being ill or not feeling well, which aren’t true for me.
I’m sure I sound like a huge jerk, but it’s been so annoying to me to be bombarded by all the concern over my bed rest. It makes me feel a ton of pressure, like people are expecting me to have this baby any day now. And if I don’t, I have to keep answer the question of how things are going or if I’ve had the baby yet with a big fat NO as a reminder that I am in fact still pregnant and still haven’t met my child yet. Again, I know people are just trying to be nice and reach out, I’m sure. I just didn’t realize that so many people would start asking or realize that it would make me feel the need to “perform.” Now I feel like if I don’t have this kid early like everyone suspects, I’ll be seen as a failure or something (which I know makes NO logical sense at all, but it’s just how all this makes me feel – and really, there is no logic in a pregnant lady’s mind).
So, with all of that said, last week was really hard for me because any sign of labor I had, I was trying to convince myself that she was coming and just got all freaked out. I had a real heart-to-heart with the Lord on Saturday though and just let all of that go. Regardless of how all this has made me feel, He knows her birthday. He knows the exact time she will enter the world. He has a perfect plan and I am just here to facilitate and honor that by being patient until that time comes. I’m going to need a lot of His grace to keep from going insane in the weeks to come, for sure, but I definitely feel a lot better just letting it go.
If you made it this far, thanks for reading my crazy pregnant lady thoughts. 😉 Stop by tomorrow for a fun (and not pregnancy-related) giveaway!
Questions for You:
- What baby item do you get excited for?
- Did you go crazy when you were nearing the end of pregnancy? If you haven’t had kids yet, do you think you will?